Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Don't Make Me Laugh

I feel like I have so much to say
But no real way to say it
Nothing sensible
Important
Just a whole lot of emotions
And no way to sort them
Organize them
Rid myself of them
How is it that I manage to get so lost?
So lost in all of it?
Sometimes I feel the damage has long since settled
Past irreversible
Though I may not want to undo it
I just wish I knew how to speak
Speak of it
For me, no
For everyone else, most certainly
Because I know what I mean
And intend
Though others ask more questions than they get answers
Second nature fuses with the basic
And primary
And the end result
Is something I cannot efficiently express
The frustration builds
And like a child
I am a frenzy
Intrinsically
So fearful of exhibiting all my irrationalities
Accusations
Excuses
And shortcomings
Because I remind myself of them all the time
Coming from someone that matters
Could
Would be enough to do me in entirely
Why do you do it?
Why do you do that to me?
And why would your answer even possess merit?
Value?
Credibility?
When I become a completely different person
Every time we talk
This innocence
Ignorance, moreover
Is blinding
Deafening
Crippling
And I can't get past it
So fuck you and your games
Because I don't lose in life
And for you to think I'd start now
Provides me with a cheap laugh
So go on with yourself
Jester
Comedian
Funny guy
You're so damn funny, aren't you?



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Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Sagacity: We Are All a Little Supernatural

Intuition: It is a very powerful, yet mysterious component of the human psyche. Though many of us can somewhat fathom how it works (be that it is a challenge to explain), I haven't encountered many people that question its origins or why we possess such a mystical tool.

First and foremost, it has been established that every person on the face of the planet is instilled with intuition, the same way we are all endowed with a brain and heart. Some think that it just is, while others such as myself have found methods to sharpen, harness, and utilize it to its maximum capabilities (though it is always growing and refining itself, infinitely). I have discovered through my own personal experiences, that intuition, when used in the correct manner, is meant to guide us to our utmost potential; to achieve our destiny through alignment of fate with our destiny (and I'll get into that subject in a different post). That is the "why" portion of the question as to why we have it.

Within a period of years, I have scrupulously delved into what seems to be such an elusive, inexplicable part of the human experience, and where it comes from.

And by means of simplification (though not to insult your intelligence), I'll give you an encompassing example: have you ever had one of those moments when you just "knew" or "felt" something, almost as if foretelling, and you couldn't completely explain it, but it all came to be? "I KNEW IT!" we all say. It's "that feeling" you get, wherever it may come from (because it is derivative of many physical places in the body), that something is about to or will unfold, without ever needing (or being able to present) concrete evidence. Well, I believe that the primary reason we contain a seemingly god-like perception inside of our bodies is because it is indeed GOD itself/Himself/whatever you believe that is within us.

I truly believe that when we, as individuals, are conceived, and the energies of the universe (God included) are in the process of creating every part of us, there are fragments of God itself/Himself that it/He gives to us. One of which being that because we are created in "His image," we are imparted with divine virtue (the blueprints of every human soul, grafted from the beginning as complete because there is good in everyone, though as we grow older, become negatively influenced by the extrinsic world. In short, babies are unadulterated). Alongside divine virtue, intuition is another little piece of God that resonates within our bodies, a gift given by God itself/Himself. Metaphorically and literally, though not physically in its entirety, we are crafted in "His image."

I'll give that some time to simmer and marinate...











Okay, moving on.

In correlation to the commentary above, one must understand that at the end of the day, we are still human. Our intuition is not ALWAYS 100% accurate. As I've stated before: in theory, no one could ever truly be God, making us fallible. And that is what separates us from the All-Knowing, All-Seeing Being. HOWEVER, because we are deliberately made in "HIS IMAGE," we still have the ability to transcend into our own higher consciousness and attain knowledge on even higher planes, whether it be about life in general, how events will come to pass, or how to follow the road to your destiny. And it is here that I have ascertained that intuition comes from various places inside the body.

The Gut (also known as The Soul, for the spiritual people): This, from what I can attest, is where intuition is strongest, most reliable, and at its purest form. The gut is the center of every person's body. (The Soul is abstract.)

The Heart: Intuition, here, still contains exponential and unbelievable power, though many times it can become tainted by one's own desires, causing its constancy to somewhat or even detrimentally derail. The heart is located in the chest, which is a little off-center in comparison to the gut.

The Mind: Because instinct mostly occupies the mind, it is here that intuition can become a bit deceptive, for lack of a better term, and the two become hard to distinguish at times. And because we use our minds to make sense of the world around us, it is here that one can begin to question themself completely. Intuition, in the mind, has some significance, but lacks credibility compared to its counterparts. The mind is located in the head, which, as we all know, is at the very top of the body and completely unbalanced in comparison to where intuition should be (the gut).

Some people claim that instinct and intuition are interchangeable, when in reality, they are pretty discrepant. Instinct contains reason, or logic. Intuition simply is. We have a number of specific instincts, just as animals do. A bear's instinct for the winter is to hibernate. There is a scientific explanation as to why it does so. Look up intuition, and like this, the closest you'll get to solid ground is theory. It's a matter of faith. And being brave enough to believe.

Lastly, when one has surpassed limitations by means of unspecific catalysts, intuition is employed to its maximum capacity (at that/those very moment[s], because it is always growing and refining itself). When one has surpassed (earthly) limitations, one is able to use intuition from every part of their superficial (and astral/soul/spiritual) body: The Gut/Soul, The Heart, and The Mind. And they (separate intuitions) are all in perfect alignment (thus, work as one and unlock parts of us we had not known of prior). These parts of the human body (gut, heart, mind) are physically in alignment for a reason - it's not a coincidence.

And this, this is where I am now. When I speak about my future, my intuition from every part of my body is within perfect alignment and is ringing. It is so omnipotent, beyond many other's comprehension other than my own. My gut/soul, heart, and mind ALL want it, can feel it, know it.

This does not go without saying, that all of this power is within one's grasp, if they are willing to believe. And have faith. To believe in something one cannot totally understand, for science does not always accommodate answers we can all agree on.

"It's not faith if you're using your eyes."

Reki*




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